Mega Mind, on 28 January 2013 - 03:56 PM, said:
I'm afraid that not being "tied down" to someone only seems like a positive when you don't want to dedicate your life to the person you're tied to. I did and still would in a heart beat. That doesn't fill me with confidence. That's why i'm considering just cutting everything i have to do with her. Collecting my stuff, deleting her off facebook, getting rid of all her friends off facebook and just starting fresh. But i'm going to try and speak to her first and see if she wants to be proper friends or not. Not spoke to her in nearly a week, so might leave it until an entire week has passed. It will be the first week i haven't communicated with her in any way in nearly 6 years. I know i'm stupid for it, and it's not helping anything, but I still think she'll take me back one day. I just can't decide what the best way to get to that stage is.
Yeah I know...that probably would be best though. It will hurt you yeah, but it most likely will end up hurting you less than keeping all the stuff and people around that constantly reminds you.
We all go through it. Up until I found out he was engaged I hoped he'd want me back...hell even now I kinda hope if they get married she ends up getting tired and leaving and then him want me back...but deep down I know better..I just..wish.....
Life sucks and reality bites..